Halloween !

So what are you guys planning to do on Halloween night? Truthfully I want to go trick of treating but I'm too old. It's pretty sad, I mean i went trick or treating a two years ago, and one of the lady actually said , "umm, aren't you a bit too old for trick or treating". Sometimes I still feel like I'm fifteen years old, time went by so fast and it's going faster this year especially. I mean, university is so soon, I still don't think I'm fully prepared or "ready" cause I'm still a kid at heart. If anything I'd like to go back to when I was 10 years old, life was so much easier. My little brother wished he was a teenage so he can do all the "cool" things like driving, going outside alone. I guess people aren't really happy when they are a certain age, they either wish they were older or younger. Anywho so I might go to movies on friday, and I am planning to dress up as a bunny ! I'm very excited to go to Screemers tommorw, I'm too lazy to go to Fearfest just cause it's far. Toodles

Anger and Happiness.

hmm very interesting topic to blog on Ms. Cat ! :)
Let see, what makes me extremely angry is when people don't keep their words. I almost HATE when people do such a thing, it makes me so angry! For example, let say a person says they want to hang out with you, and you cancel all your other amazing plans just for this specific person and at the VERY last minute they flop! ARGHH!!

anyways, another thing that makes me really really angry is when people are not understanding.I find it very disrespectful when people put words in your mouth and tell you whole bunch of crap instead of listening what you have to say. When someone yells constantly, it just makes me go kill someone! Anyways i should calm down ! :)

let's get to things that make me HAPPY!!
Well really, I'm happy if my family and friends are happy. I am happy when I help others and feel like I've actually made a difference in their life. I love it when people say "thanks for being there for me or thank you for everything you've ever done" , makes me feel like I'm a mature person. I love to dance, if anybody turns on a very nice song, I'll just start dancing! Dancing makes me happy or music itself. I am not a type of person where I get happy because of the materials in this world, because they come and go. Plus I realized, people never stop wanting more so I like to keep my wants and needs to a limit and that gives me happiness:)

Time

I swear time passed by so fast the past two weeks, especially because of the "4 day week" and same with this upcoming week, no school on friday! This year is going to go by way too fast. Well I haven't seen any topics on the main page so I'll talk about what I've done so far this weekend. Yesterday I had such an awesome sleep because it was late start + spare first period, so got like 3 extra hours of sleep. It felt so good, i wish school started at 11:25 everyday. After school I saw one of my very good friends from Mississauga after school. Downtown is always so busy, and I realized almost every block it had McDonalds and all these fast food places. No wonder I gained so much weight this year, since McDonalds was right beside where I worked. I really like how starbucks set up different kinds of chairs and couches for business people and university students. My friend and I were just discussing our future and what's it going to be like. It's pretty scary how I'll be turning 18 this may, it still feels like I'm 16 to be honest. Time just goes by way too fast especially from high school to univeristy. Around 7:30 pm my friend left, and I had to go to a dance practise that I'm preparing for to perfom all the way at Connecticut in U.S.A next weekend so I'm very very excited for that. Today, I'll be also rehearseing with my whole group and hopefully have some energy to do homework. Tommorow, probably going to watch a movie, I haven't been to the movies for like three weeks now! Anyways I know this was very boring but atleast I wrote something :) Toodles!

Enlightenment!

So about two weeks ago I was very upset just going through stress from school, friends, my ex boyfriend and all. It was recent that i experience a big change in my life (a good one) because of a simple book. The book is called the "JagaJyotti" it means enlighten in Bengali. It's a book about Buddhism. i never really payed close attention to Buddhism and what Buddha said about enlightenment and how to reach happiness. As i started to read, I realized how right he was about human and their behavior, he stated that the key to happiness is to cut down on your desires (your wants and needs) and have peace with people as much as you can. Think of the good, be good and in the end you will be happy. Before I used to think happiness was all about being the most smartest, pretty. and get whatever you want. I realized how wrong I was and that the more we get, the more we want which creates problems such us selfish, greed, doubts, and pain. So i started to apply the method of "enlightenment" and I'm beginning to see many improvments. I don't cry myself to sleep anymore, nor do I get jelous, or have doubts. Sometimes it is hard to be honest or think positive but the more you get yourself to it and make it as a habit, your life would be much more easier. I'm still reading about Buddha's sayings because if you apply it to your life, it actually will help for people to be successful. So yeah that was that and I'm much happier now that I focus on all the good things that are in my life such as my family and friends.

He Said, She Said

So the other day while I was in the train, I saw a random lady walking in with polka dot sweater, carrying lots of stuff. She looked like as if she needed to talk to someone. When we stopped at Pape station, she started talking to herself. I was listening to music so I couldn't hear anything for a good 5 minutes, it was really weird so I took off my ear phones to see what was up. She was way louder than I thought, she was talking about politics and how the governement is ruining the world. Every person that came sat beside her, she would turn to them and say "Jesus christ, this world is getting worse and worse day by day". One of the conversations I remember went like this :

The old lady: Women never have as much freedom, it's all about the MEN! Even though the majority of the population is women, only about 22 % is in the governement, the rest is just men. They never make the right decision, WAKE UP everyone, it's the truth and jesus christ knows it!

Person 1 : Can you please be quiet, some people are trying to read you know

The old lady: These books! they keep you busy, MEDIA, TELEVISION, MUSIC They are all planned to keep us dump people busy so we don't think about what the government is doing to us!!

Person 1: (walks away & gets off the station)


In a way she is right about not many women not being part of the government but she seemed as if she was abused or something. It felt like as if I was back in the 1920's (not sure what year) when women didn't have any freedom, in today's world women do have lots of freedom so I wasn't too sure what she was talking about. I understood the fact that she wasn't normal or she may have gone through something very harsh in her life.

So tired

Finally created my new blog, hopefully you guys will come across it some time soon. Anyways so I'm having the most awful head ache today, you know one of those day? Where you just feel like everything hurts! I just feel like sleeping all day long, without doing any homework, phone, going out but looks like I have way too much homework. Yes, I love to procrastinate which is the reason why I'm left with all these homework tonight. So anyways my weekend was pretty fun, went to a party last night it was Sameer's birthday (the president of the student government) and saw people from school, danced, had fun! Today I'm just left with piles of homework. I don't really know what else to write about so I will end it here :) have a good day!